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Thursday, December 29, 2005

Just In Time

Well, today I recieved an envelope in the mail. It was of course a dreaded, self adressed deal which is always a bearer of bad news. Another rejection, just in time for new years.

This time it was from a publishing house, rejecting, without any comment, my novel Legacy of Silence. On the one hand I know I have not tried hard enough. I have only sent it to 3 agents and this one publisher. But on the other, part of me feels like burning the manuscript, erasing the files and stomping my jump drive to bits, obliterating the humiliating proof that I slaved over this "novel". I haven't come to any firm decisions. But those are the things that come to mind. 2005 has been a ver sad and sorry year for my writing. I sold exactly one piece, a short story and then I lost the check and never got paid for it. A bad year indeed. Here is hoping that 2006 will be much, much better, for all of us.

I don't have one of those "current mood" tickers, but if I did, it would not have a smiley face right now.

Thursday, December 22, 2005

Long Nights Moon Wishes

December always puts me in a misty sort of, nostalgic mood. I get to thinking about my great, great grandmothers and the very real struggle they endured to survive the winter, and see their children alive on the other side of it. We take so very much for granted today. We don't have to walk to the river and break through the ice to get water, or go to an out house to relieve ourselves. And those were the least of the problems in the pre-industrial period.

Last night was the longest night of the year. Today the sun came out and filled our living room with brightness. The candles we lit last night at our annual winter solstice observance were still burning and their cinnamon odor filled the room. Life is good. Despite any problems or dificulties we might have, we are truly blessed and have nothing to complain about, even thoughI am certainly guilty of whining about our problems.

I know that is not true for everyone in the world. I read the stories of real suffering each day. I wish there was more I could do to stop it. Like most idealistic dreamers I want to fix all the problems in the world and put all my brothers and sisters to bed happy and fulfilled. How much can I do to achieve it though? Oh I can donate money, or work for a charity, but I think real peace begins as a tiny seed, then hopefully takes root and spreads like an unruly vine all over the place. So here is my effort at planting a seed.

One thing I have been noticing lately is how quick those around me are to take offense and grow anger toward their family and friends. My kids illustrated this just last night. My 17 year old daughter and 14 year old son were talking. She took something he said offensively and got angry. She shot off some unkind words. He became upset and shot back. She then did the one thing she certainly knew would upset him, she knocked over his bass guitar. It got hairy from there. They are still not talking and all over a root problem that in essence was no more than a misunderstanding. Had she simply not assumed malice, or asked him what he meant by his comment all of this could have been avoided. I've been noticing a lot of this kind of thing in my family and friends lately. I wish it would stop. That everyone will give the benefit of the doubt, communicate and remember that the relationship they have with the other person is worth too much to just let anger grow like a cancer until it consumes everything good that used to be between them.

You gotta give peace a chance, at the grass roots, in your own life, long before you can hope to change the world.


Sunday, December 18, 2005

We Believe In Fairies!

Seeing is believing after all...


Yes, this is more than a greeting, it is indeed a statement, or so the recent hullaballoo in the news would make it seem. I just read an article about a protest being staged against Wal-Mart by a church group. What struck me about the whole ordeal, was that the minister, who was very upset that Wal-Marts decision to use "Happy Holidays" might be a blatant attempt to secularize the Christian holiday, chose to stage his protest dressed in a Santa costume.

What may I ask Reverend, does Santa have to do with Jesus? The perversion of the christian holiday began at it's inception. After all, early christians, you know, the guys who actually followed Christ around, didn't celebrate his birth. They celebrated his death. Do your homework. Christmas was brought in centuries later when the Roman empire was trying to get the Christians and the Pagans to fight togeher in wars to further state interests. The pagan holiday simply took on some christian flavor. Most of our traditional Christmas trappings are pagan in nature. Very few have anything to do with the Christ child. But don't take my word for it. By all means do a little reasearch, or maybe read your copy of the Bible. Jesus said to commemorate his death, not his birth, and the date of the birth was never clearly laid out. The reason for the season, varries from person to person and family to family. Get over it.

Now of course, I don't have a personal issue with these things, but one would think that before you stage a protest on the matter, you would consider your costume a bit better and make sure you aren't contributing to the very "Problem" you are there to protest.

All right, I feel better having gotten that out of my system. So happy merrychistmahannakwazikayule to eveybody cool enough not to be offended by the tolerant inclusion of everybody else.